Notes Along the Way

Welcome to Zombieville. Where We Survive while Internally Frozen.
Kelli Murbach Kelli Murbach

Welcome to Zombieville. Where We Survive while Internally Frozen.

I recently spent four frozen days in the Deep South.

The early fall temperatures were actually lovely. Highs in the low 80s and lows in the high 50s. Ideal enough for me, I popped open many of my windows.

Yet, I found myself frozen in a chair, playing Suduku and listening to Michelle Sagara’s [Chronicles of Elantra](https://michellesagara.com/series/chronicles_of_elantra/) series, unable to travel the five feet into my office to work on the stuff that needed to get done.

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Tackling the Armor Takes Intention
Kelli Murbach Kelli Murbach

Tackling the Armor Takes Intention

Spending years in a defense-focused survival mode often creates a hard outer shell around our expectations for how we need to show up in the world to keep ourselves and our loved ones safe.

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Why I Do Family of Origin Work
Kelli Murbach Kelli Murbach

Why I Do Family of Origin Work

And for a lot of years, and through a lot of programs. I focused on having compassion for everybody but myself. Whether it was the church or therapy, the focus was figuring out how to have some compassion for my mother.

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on Erosion and Deep Foundations
Kelli Murbach Kelli Murbach

on Erosion and Deep Foundations

My healing path looks an awful lot like the slow removal of the dirt and stuff over which I’ve built my full understanding of who I am. Talk about scary as duck…

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Power in the Wings
Kelli Murbach Kelli Murbach

Power in the Wings

I often imagine myself standing in the wings of an active stage for my turn to enter the story. This improv stage is my life, and I have only a glimmer of an idea about what's next. Standing there, waiting to enter, is like a new beginning. The moment defines one of my knife's sharpest edges.

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Landing on Secular Shepherdess
Kelli Murbach Kelli Murbach

Landing on Secular Shepherdess

Like many people, I walk around with a love/hate relationship with labels. My brain finds them extremely useful, but I balk at wearing them when they don’t fit just right. So, of course, there’s a story for how I landed on Secular Shepherdess.

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